Chess was my favourite game when I was in college and then I got busy with life and had no time for it. However I was amazed to see that it is not only played on the board. Nowadays I am watching a hideous game of chess that is being played on the land of my Brothers and Sisters. Although I am yet unable to percieve the difference between these two players. Their role appear similar, with apparently different names. Also I am terrified to see that the main objective of chess is altered here. I doubt it is not being played with the intention to checkmate the opponent but to capture the pawns. Poor pawns!
Do you know what death is? Lying there, hearing things and knowing that there is absolutely nothing that you can do, that is death. And I am dying everyday. I feel like we all will be killed in the same way someday, castrated and helpless!
I believe in the power of prayers but I don’t have the courage to sit in front of Allah. He can ask me what are you doing for them? You are a Munafiq. I am afraid to pray, yet there is a faint voice deep inside me who is continuously praying.
May Allah safe my people from the so-called peacemakers and let them see the beautiful colors of sunrise and dance to the songs of koel. Ameen.
If the rate of suicide increases in any society, blame yourself for that and know that someone wants to talk to me, wants to share his/her suffering with me but I don’t have any time to listen.
Today is the 15th World Suicide Prevention Day. It is held every year on 10th of September in order to stand with the people who are, not yet, able to see the beauty of this life. Every year 800,000 people end their life by suicide and there is 1 suicide every 40 seconds across the globe. The theme of this year is amazing and very similar to what Ashfaq Ahmed Sahab said years ago. It says;
“Take a minute, change a life.”
The theme encourages everyone to spare a moment for those who are struggling, specially those who might not be very well connected to the society or even isolated. Spare a moment, check in and listen. Give them your ears, they are waiting for you. Research shows that 2/3 people inform before they commit suicide. And that is why strong family system and good social connections serve as protective factors. I also want to tell that we see a lot of patients with suicidal ideation, mostly with moderate to severe depression and when I ask do you think this life is worth living? They say not at all and when I ask do you ever plan to end your life? They say I would have ended my life uptil now but because it is haram (prohibited) in Islam, I haven’t. Alhamdulillah for a religion like that. Allah says in Surah Al-Nisa that;
“Don’t kill yourself. No doubt Allah (swt) is merciful and anyone who does so, will be punished in fire. And it is easy for Allah.
Subhan Allah. In this verse, Allah is reminding us that don’t end this beautiful life that I have gifted you and reminding us clearly that He is merciful. He will fix everything eventually. As I always say, even the bad things, happen for a good reason. We just have to keep going, with trust. And in the next verse, He is then warning the person that if you still want to do it, know that I will punish you. Can you see the love behind this threat? Like our parents do when we are not listening to them and they want to safe us in every way, possible or impossible? A love like that. Alhamdulillah.
Now the question is do we have a minute to listen to the people who need us?? Listen in a non-judgement and empathic way. Let them share in whatever way they want. World is a beautiful place. It is more beautiful when we are all connected through love. Shams Tabrizi says that we are all connected in a circle. So it is not the suffering of a single person, it is always a mutual suffering. Show people that you love. Listen.
In the last month, I didn’t get time to write or share anything here. It was initially due to ramzan. But now that ramzan is gone, I am still not getting enough time to get back to my past routine and that is because I have started my post-graduation training in Psychiatry. It’s been more than 3 weeks and Alhamdulillah, I am satisfied with my decision.
So here we have a weekly class on Psychology too. And today, the topic was Human figure drawing (hfd). It is a technique that is used by the psychologist to access the psychological or personality status of a person through drawing. Instead of teaching us this technique, she used it on us 😛 She gave us a paper to draw a human. We were a bunch of 8 people. After we completed, she evaluated our drawings and showed us how to do it. I didn’t like this idea much because she didn’t take care of our privacy and that too in a professional setup where people are already all set to judge you. Anyway when she came down to my drawing, it was a whirling dervish. She said that because I showed his back that indicates I am shy. She mentioned some more points and concluded that I need appreciation and may be I didn’t get it in the past so I have turned my back to the world. Talking about the positive point of my personality, she said that I am autonomous.
I don’t know if I agree with her but one thing is for sure that this technique can be very deceiving, without proper history or understanding I would say. As the context of the psychologist can change the entire situation, like a person who has no desire of the world due to; let’s say, sufism; could be taken as a person who is getting detached due to depression or failures. Or in other words, the interpretation is dependent. Even saying the right thing in another context, can change the status of a normal person to a person who is in need of the therapy.
However I do think that this technique can benefit in the situations where patients are not willing or comfortable in opening up in front of the psychiatrist. Overall, I enjoyed today’s class and I wish to know more about psychology because I believe, in the present psychiatry practice, we are relying almost completely on the medicines and don’t give as much attention to psychology.
And that is all about what’s going on in my life. I missed this place and I hope everybody is doing good 🙂 Love and blessings to everyone♥
I know this world; it never fulfills its promises. You won’t find a real friend in the whole world. Don’t go on gazing at that glided disk in the sky: It has nothing inside it, not even a straw mat!
So many idiots swarm into the trap of this world Like blind men who don’t have a stick to hand!
They worry for this world and tremble at its poverty. Bizarre lunacy which nothing can ever cure!
It’s easy to credit the world’s beauty since it stays veiled. In reality, it’s hideous old hag, without any allure. Whoever submits to her witchcraft is like a serpent Without feet, or hands, or intelligence, or religion. What an absurd fate to give your life to this world!
It’s the fate of all those who don’t find the path to Him. What is this copper full of dross, that forgets its copper-nature And imagines that the philosophers stone doesn’t exist?
Because of a vain image, you yourself become illusion And then all you can know is grief, anguish, and disaster.
Few months back, I decided to start a fight against depression because I know how devastating this one feeling can be. Yes, I believe that it’s more of a feeling than an illness. I reached my friends, who have fought or are still fighting with depression, but unfortunately no one came forward to help me in this cause. But as I believe, nothing good ever goes in vain, I met this gentleman, Aron Bennett, on twitter. He invited me to write for his global diary. A diary that was going to be all about mental problems, experiences of people who have successfully won this battle against their own minds and also about the feelings of those who are still fighting and are so amazing and brave that they are willing to share their feelings with the whole world, just to support other people who are dealing with any sort of mental illness or problem. I was a bit hesitant about writing at first because personally I have never had any mental problem, apart from mood swings that includes depression too but not for more than a week or two, or a unique story to share with the world, but Aron was nice enough to let me share an entry as a doctor. Also English is not my first language but he was ok with it too so I submitted my entry on 6/16/2016, on depression ( I have my interest in psychiatry as my post-graduation field, for those who don’t know me). It takes me great pleasure to tell you that the e-book is now published and available on Amazon here. The amount generated by this book is going to charity, if I got it right. So please go and show some love to this gentleman and to everyone who decided to came forward and shared that private part of their heads. Let’s make this world a better place for each other. Love and spread love.